Monday, January 16, 2023
My Mama,
She was so much more than this obituary. She was quirky, silly, even & ditzy at times. She loved animals, she admired them, she loved her mama, who made her the person she was today. They had a special bond & that i myself, now understand.
she loved the outdoors, hiking watching birds, listening to the wind blow or the rain on the tin roof. She loved poetry, writing singing & dancing. She loved cooking, & spending time with her family while we made memories in the kitchen. she was always strong in her faith, she was a firm spiritual believer & she never judged anyone. She was a 2nd mama to so many. She had the sweetest demeanor, & this calming voice I’ll never forget & I’m so grateful i got to hear it everyday for the last 30 years.
My sweet mama, she fought so hard in her time here on the earth. Her life was less than easy, but she never lead anyone to believe it was a bad life. No matter the pain, the despair, the bad parts of life, she stayed positive, she stayed the happy person I’ve always known, even in her last days, she was herself texting me smiling.
She taught me how to withstand anything life threw at me, but she didn’t teach me how to live life without her in it. She did teach me how to see the beauty in everything, to take the good & how to love someone no matter circumstances. She taught me how to be selfless, she showed this everyday in her life, even with being miserably sick, i never heard my mama say anything bad, or be angry with her condition, she taught me to be grateful.
Her terminal illness, Old Man Wilson, as she called it; Wilsons Disease; rapidly took her life just 14 short days into 2023, this were to be her year. She just knew it, & maybe it was her year? Maybe she did get the liver she so desperately needed. Not a new one, but hers again, just not here on this earth. She is comforted & reunited with her mama, her sister Tammy & her favorite dog Roxie. For this I’m at ease knowing she isn’t hurting anymore, she isn’t confused, she is herself once again & she got her liver. The liver she number she’d get this year. The liver she promised me she would have. She hung on for so long; it amazes Me. She never gave until her tired body couldn’t stand it. She fought for 43 years. She almost lost her life countless times. I am so proud to call myself her daughter.
My Mama, I’ll never forget you. I could sit here for hours & tell people how amazing you were. but if you knew her, you’d know exactly what i was talking about.
You loved me unconditionally & when i see my daughters now, I know & Feel just how much you loved me, & it breaks my heart I’ll never hold your hand again, I’ll never kiss your forehead again, ill never hug you again, I’ll never hear your sweet voice again, but one thing I’ll always know & have is your love & you loved me hard, you loved me till you couldn’t any longer. You never gave up on me, you were the only person i had who absolutely loved me for me. You were my best friend.
I miss you so badly…. I love you forever & a day because forever isn’t long enough mama.
Please watch over me… you know i need it.
